In my body,

There’s always this battle..

between two independent organs of mine,

yet to some point, both of them want to lead me.

I have this thing, were i forgive and forget,

not once, but always..

-“You have no dignity, are you happy with people always stepping on you?” My brain seems to ask

-“I will just act clueless, and keep being nice, they’ll never know that I know they’re humiliating me” my heart, offensively replies

-“youre dumb, you will end up alone you know that. People will leave you eventually”

-“as long as I’m being a good one then i don’t care”

-“Noone understands you, noone will ever do, why are you holding onto them so badly if you know they aren’t gonna benefit you in a way or another?”

-“the feeling of being alone, seemse nice, maybe, but it’s scary, having noone to talk to? What if I go insane.”

And this goes on, all day everyday

who is wrong, who is right? I genuinely, don’t have a clue,

who am I gonna listen to? which will i follow through?

I guess that’s the unending battle that I have to fight..

Every. Single. Day.