these tears on

my cheeks seem

never ending,

to you at least

but you won’t stop

“get a hold of

yourself”

“you are holding

this family hostage”

“i’m disappointed”

but it’s hard to get a

grip on myself

when there is

nothing to gain

purchase and

i’m not holding anyone

which might be

why i’m still

hurting,

because there’s

no one else

to hold

and it’s not my

fault you’re

disappointed because

those were your

expectations.

i guess you

overestimated

me