I wish I were a cat

Not even a beautiful one- just some scruffy street cat that doesn’t care if anyone looks.

I would sleep all day

In warm corners no one notices,

Curl up like I don’t owe the world my face, my time, my anything

I wish I were a cat

So I could dissapear without dying

Just vanish behind someone’s fence,

Or under a car,

Or into the sky

And nobody would panic

They’d just shrug.

“She’s probably fine.”

I would stare at walls for hours

And no one would ask if I’m okay

They would say I’m mysterious, not broken.

I wish I were a cat so I could scream without sound

Yowl into the night and have it mean something

Without needing to explain

I’d knock shit over,

Bite people for no reason,

Run away,

And come back like nothing happened

And they’d still want me.

I wish I were a cat

No mirrors

No guilt

No future

Just soft paws

Closed eyes

And permission to exist