I feel like I’m being kicked out of my home

The one place I knew I belonged

The one place I always felt safe

Because someone new is offering more

But haven’t I paid my rent?

Every minute of every day

Every time I search for my home

During the 5 minutes between classes

I don’t blame her

If someone else was offering more to me

Wouldn’t I take the deal too?

No.

I want to talk to her in person

But she’s always with the new lease

Who’s taking my spot

And I don’t blame her either

But I can’t look her in the eyes

I love my home

And it’s so hard to watch those

Notifications pop up from instagram

Every time she’s scrolling

Because I know she didn’t send them

To me first

I don’t want to be possessive

I know I don’t own my home

But I can’t help but feel like

The new lease will destroy the place

And all I can do is

Watch from across the street

As my home burns to the ground

My home made me a promise

That she broke within a week

And she almost never break promises

She never breaks

I know I’m not being evicted

But my heart feels like it was

Thrown out the window

Like the core of an apple nobody will eat

I don’t want her to think I’m mad

I don’t blame anyone

But I miss my home

And I feel like

A piece of my soul is missing too