Dancing by the moon

Looking at the shinning stars

How pretty they are

Falling into love

Who is falling the fastest?

How pretty love is

Shouting in our room

You threw my favorite china

How pretty they were

Falling down the stairs

It was you who pushed me down

How pretty blood is

I want to leave you

But I thought that I loved you

I guess lies are pretty...

I know you used to

Oh you used to love me so

Will I recover?

I still look for you

In everyones masked faces

All sheilded by lies

No one is like you

But I am learning to breathe

No longer drowning

I don’t miss you now

But I still write these words out

And I still wonder

The kids know your face

I say “In a better place”

Because you left us

(so random nothing i have ever experienced but basica...

Life is just all wrong

Nothing will replace her there

In my broken heart

I see her waving

In the bright blue sky she’s in

I just want to go

Today’s her birthday

She smiled at me just now

And I smiled too

I flip through photos

Everywhere she is still there

And she always will

She is looking down

At me from her place above

I think she’s at peace....

Everyone got sick,

Places started to close down,

We had to wear masks.

More social distance,

Two very painful vaccines,

And smaller events.

We still wore our masks,

And washed our hands a lot,

So we could keep clean.

After booster shots,

Things started back to normal,

Still some Zoom meetings.

Some people still sick,

Now we can see each other,

With hugs and kisses....

Yes, I like that boy

Is what I say to myself

Knowing it’s not true

Ace, aromantic

The words make my mind dizzy

Who even am I?

Over and over

I take quizzes on my phone

One outcome remains

I’m sick of doubting

I look at you, lift my chin

And tell you the truth

Rainbows fill the streets

Proudly, I wear my colors

This is who I am...

Moment:

Kids are burnt alive

I see it with my own eyes

House engulfed in flames

1 Year:

Scenes stay in my head

Guilt eats away at my mind

Why am I not dead

2 Years:

I wish I was there

In the burning broken home

I am so alone

3 Years:

I have found the one

To replace all the others

Fill my emptiness

4 years:

Pain Dissipating

Sorrow is flying away

Though still they remain...

I found your body

In the midnight countryside

Cold snow empty road

Memory of sound

Click click click of hazard lights

Radio static

Hair and hide to dust

I bring you a gift of earth

Old bones breathe new air

Now gather yourself

And let me transduce your ghost

Into quiet space

I found your body

Live with me in country air

Where were you going?...

Sitting on the floor

Sharp breaths; Rocking back and forth

They can Never know

My thoughts are consumed

And I feel oh so doomed

I hope they don’t know

I know myself now

But am still A bit afraid

I don’t want to tell

I might be ready

But I second guess myself

I will tell them soon

I am confident

I just hope I am ready

Mom, Dad, I am Bi...

I am learning you

How our hands touch, your smile

Blackberries in spring

New parts of you bloom

Bright through the twisting thicket

Fireflies at woods edge

We touch, the comfort

Of years between our edges

Soft rain on the skin

Love made someone new

A deep river growing wider

Honeysuckle drifts

I have fallen deep

Into the habit of love

Cricketsong from high grass...

Umbrellas bloom bright,

Neon carrots, purple beans—

A rainbow in rain.

Rain drumbeats on tents,

Lively chatter, laughter bursts—

Market hums alive.

Soggy socks squelching,

Pickle jars cool, smooth as glass—

Textures weave a quilt.

Mint mingles with mud,

Popcorn popping, earthy steam—

A scent kaleidoscope....