If I could only say one last thing

And I used it on you ,

It would be goodbye.

Thought that may not be the answer you want

It’s the answer I need.

And though it may hurt you,

I’m choosing me.

I’m choosing the sunrise and a good book

I’m choosing laying in the rain on hot concrete

I’m choosing his lips on my skin.

I don’t need words to feel happiness.

I believe I’m doing the right thing b...

When the storm comes

My compass always points to you

Even when it shouldn’t

Even when truly the storm is you

When I should walk away

Choose the easy direction

I’m always gravitating towards you

To your warmth

Your kindess

Your beautiful soul

But you’ll never point to me

In a room of people I won’t be chosen

So why do I choose you?...

Today, I walk down memory lane.

As I walk through it,

I reminisce in it.

But as I walk further down this lane,

The houses colors are fading.

I remember the lane being filled with familiar faces

Ones that saw me

Eyes that knew mine

Now all the faces do is blur

Like old memories

Leaves falling away

The farther I walk down,

The thinner the road

The concrete crumbles

I come to the en...

I couldn’t choose between these two topics so here’s two

Drugs Burn:

I don’t find the first time I saw you rememberable

I don’t remeber the other times I sat in a room with you all that thrilling either

I don’t know if it was because I was to wrapped up in my own mind

Or because you weren’t interested in seeing my bright side

I only remember you being near when I was at my weakest

When...

When I was little I looked at my reflection in a puddle

I was to little to notice any imperfections

I giggled and jumped into the puddle without a worry

I grew up a little more and it was my first day of school

My mom holds my hand as I walk in

A little older and I see a boy. He’s cute

A little older

I cry because i don’t have friends

But I don’t understand why

A little older

I...

I know we’ll hurt forever

Knowing what we have done

How could we do it?

Why?

I feel like this is something that I can’t recover from

I feel it stains my heart

I know in a year

When it seems okay again

When everything seems normal

When it’s quiet

I’ll be reminded

Of how I stabbed my own heart

Cut it into a thousand pieces.

And though you tried sowing it back together,

The scars are sti...

People often call silence peaceful

Maybe for them

But when I’m alone

The room quiet

The door shut,

The screaming begins.

My head will never let me rest

It will continue to drown me in thoughts and fears

Alone

Trapped in my mind

It’s a prison

That only entraps me for the crime of hating myself...

If wishes fell like rain, then certainly I am the storm

I’m constantly hoping for a different ending

That maybe one day I won’t be the one who is broken

That one day I will not be the broken nor the forsaken

I always imagine the scenarios in my head

Everyone wanting me

Me having scarless skin

But the day of my storm of hopes coming true will never come

So I’ll continue to kneel

To ...

Im not quite sure what to do anymore

I’m lost

And everything I do seems to be so wrong

I’ve been locked away in my room for weeks

My parents are worried

I don’t know what’s wrong with me

I want to fix it

But I don’t want to stay

I want to be done feeling like I’m constantly suffocating

I take the bottle of meds I don’t need

I take them all

And I’m awake...

I’m in love

My mother says it’s not real

That I’m too young

Maybe she’s right

But I know she’s wrong when I’m with them

The way they make me feel

Feeling their pain when their hurting

The warmth of them wiping away my tears

Knowing their disappointment when they see

marks on my wrists

Begging them to run far away with me

Them enjoying my oddities

And me enjoying theirs

My mo...