Instead of crying at my pain

These days I laugh

Suddenly the statement of laughing

Being better than crying

Now has such a deeper meaning

That I can fight the demons

And stop the tears from falling

Only if i mean it

I laugh at my pain because

Today that shit is much more funnier

Than it was at the time

I don’t even recognise the girl in that cut scene

What other movies has she starred in?

...

Even the dead tell stories

Their unsettled souls trod the earth

Dropping bits of history on the way

The peaceful ones, make no noise

Those with something to say, are never quiet

The wind howls in the melody of a tune

An entrance song

For those who have never rested a day in their graves

Ready for the nightly trod

They sing songs in the place of their departure

And then stop by to kiss the lo...

A loss because it was something

I had to gain to then lose,

Something I once held but now no more

A void now

Where your existence once resided

Incomplete or different?

I fail to see how this cycle ends

Or is that something you would want me to think?

She’s no longer that person you might

Have come to know

She had to lose some parts

to find something else

She had to water the plants

So they wou...

I am not a hero in this story

I am merely a bystander

One who saw it all,

Understood it all

But did nothing

I know the cost of silence

How much pain it may cause

But I now find myself

Rewarded for my cowardness?

I don’t deserve praise

I deserve a moment to tell the truth

A moment of real justice

So the dark can come to the light

Stand before the jury

And receive its verdict....

I woke up today and realised

I been doing this thing called life all wrong

I mean… it’s partly my fault

Partly, how i was raised.

Because i’ve only ever found comfort in the struggle

Those rainy days.

Seems like everyone else

Has worked out how to play the game

I know her heart to be dirty

So why don’t we prosper the same?

I’ve been too caught up in the details

Trying to find who to blame

U...

When I see how my aura has you pressed

I can do nothing but laugh.

For how can i not laugh?

At my light shining so bright

That it’s blinding you

If I knew you were coming round

I would have told you to bring some shades.

To protect your eyes from this never ending blaze.

I wouldn’t want you to be uncomfortable

That’s not in my nature

Nor is it to hate

Or to boast

1 wasn't raised to be such a...

I bought a new phone today

First thing i did

Was unseal the box

Turn it on and wave to the camera

The man i bought the phone from

Appeared confused

No doubt a new screen to be watched by the man

Paranoia or truth

Subconscious or black mirror?

Planting ideas into my mind

That made sense

Long before they were televised and made digestible

Would they be looking for anything specific?

A weakn...

I was always going to find my way,

For you?

I’m not sure what to say.

Sometimes you convince me your the smartest

The sharpest

The bravest

Most fearless person alive,

Into that I lean in and let myself get fooled by lust’s newest disguise.

I’d be gatekeeper of your secrets

Your exhibition of history that isn’t up for viewing

But you?

you’d hum my song

To anyone who would listen

A good thing...

I grew up in an environment

Where healing wasn’t normalised.

All I ever saw was prayers, tears

And great sacrifice.

All that made me who I am

But there’s so much more.

I didn’t understand it

Until I reached out to the child I was before.

Some say God is enough

But real ones know he can’t do all the work.

I have to look deep inside

And find what needs evaluation.

Heal the parts of me that t...

Parents came here in the 90’s

To a place that wasn’t there own

A residency

Titled “immigrants on vacation”

A constant reminder this wasn’t their home

Integrating into a system

That was never made for their use

In the land of opportunity

How come they suffered abuse?

From the island of sun and sea

And banana weh drop offa tree

To tetley and rich teas

And people who wipe their hand in their pants...