I bought the biggest mirror I could find.

I set it against my wall, stood back and stared.

Disheveled I looked as my mind began its usual incineration of my body, until my glance changed to my eyes.

Staring for so long real life began to fade.

I felt a cold wood under my feet.

A brisk morning breeze

sent a comforting chill down my spine.

This is an unrecognizable satisfaction.

Peering up to a fr...

I am a penitent man today.

I feed as though I can do no right.

Dread has consumed my lungs,

leaving me with no breath.

This, a day where I must fill rooms

with bright smiles and community assurance

That I am good enough.

I am not good enough.

I do not know the depths of myself

as others do.

I do not protect those who

need salvation.

Yet I possess nothing,

and _destroy everythi...

Lights going out

Hide in the crowd

I hide myself

For you

My heart will race

Anticipate

Evaporate

For you in

Flowered unrest

Be at my best

Hide all my stress

For you

Tears stain your cheeks

I’ll hold it deep

I’m losing sleep

For you...

You’ve come back, but I no longer need you.

Fantastic Phantasm; yearning for me.

I’ve left you behind as the cold and shrewd,

your hold on me, forever engrossing.

You’ve come back, in an unexpected way.

Memories mislead me; a mist of murk.

Intentionality—the way you stay,

In an attempt to make everything work.

Loss lamently laughs; harken in the humor.

A seraphic soul, the journey be...

In the night when I can’t

Find my self reliance

I escape the silence

I escape the violence

Underneath the door frame

I listen to your pain

I will see the shadows

I will see the gallows

We are

Hiding hiding

Underneath the bedding

I will hide my head in

Block out all of the sound

There is no one around

Looking out the window

Letting all the time go

I have found a new place

Temporary m...

I look in your eyes

And I am enough

I gaze at your smile

And I am enough

Your weight on my chest

Gives me love

Under the duress

I am enough...

I fail every day

Exhale all the pain

Relentless imprisonment

Forget this existence

Everlasting diffidence

Rotting in my ignorance

I’ll beg myself for confidence

Inspect myself like documents

Comparison melts my ice

Won’t look myself in the eyes

Everlasting diffidence

Rotting in my ignorance

Searching for my inner bliss

Clawing out of the abyss...

I am decaying.

Deteimental deception, there is no escape.

Stick in these silent systemic walls.

I am decaying.

Pick up, light up, put down.

Pick up, light up, put down.

I am decaying.

The outside is visible; its beauty is calling to me.

Nature arousing within me; it remains elusively beyond.

I am decaying.

Why have I chosen this for myself?

When will my waining body will itself out?...

Clicks on hardwood floors,

Anticipation building.

Saunter over as if you never have before;

For the millionth time.

Gently jump

Fabric ponder

You circle like a shark,

Deciding its next meal.

Everything precise.

Everything peaceful.

Sharp love will pierce my skin—

As you settle in place.

No need to rush;

We will savor these moments together.

The elevator hits the final fl...

Handcrafted love, you give to me.

Thread and cloth;

Blue and yellow.

Kind eyes like its creator,

Comforting coziness cuddles me.

An extension of your heart,

I’ll carry it with me—always. ...