As I lay here, chest pounding, mind; racing. I recognise the familiar agony seeping through my stomach.

I love him. I know I do.

My attempts to comfort myself, feeble.

Tear stained cheeks, stinging, as if taunting me; making sure I don’t forget the pain staking interaction I had just suffered through.

I needed to be heard. Why is that so bad?

As I hagger myself with intrusive thoughts, my boyfrien...

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‘I’m so sorry’.

I muttered as I stared at her. Although she looked exactly like me, and her story that I had written was my own; it felt like observing a stranger.

‘Why did you make me like this’. She cried. ‘Why do I have to feel so much pain’.

I couldn’t bare to face her anymore, turning slightly; I felt myself slump.

‘I just needed to express myself, without judgement, I ne...

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Entry 04/06/2023

Dear Journal,

We argued again today. Every conversation feels like a battle that can’t be won.

Moving in together is a big step I know, and of course; he’s just worried about his daughter.

I’m trying to prove myself as best I can, trying to remind myself that it’s normal for couples to argue. Sometimes, however, I forget myself. Not with malicious intent but I ...

“Oh please, not this gothic attire again, Pearl.” My mother snorted at me as I entered the family living room.

‘Please, not this again’ sighing deeply I took my seat at the dining table. Of course In her mind, goths wear black and because I’m wearing black, I must be a goth. Such narrow minded thinking is the exact reason why I don’t plan on staying here very long. She may be the woman who gave me...

Flittering my eyes open, almost groggy from sleep.

Sunlight poured from the surroundings.

My eyes no longer met my bedroom ceiling as expected, instead, clouds steadily in motion; through a sea of blue.

Although unfamiliar, I only felt serenity gently coursing through me.

‘Funny’. I thought to myself. ‘I’m sure I had gone to bed’.

Slowly drinking in the indulgent richness of the twinkling sunli...

‘ I know I have forgotten something’ I hummed to myself gently.

Manoeuvring my way through the shopping app, half heartedly.

Really, In an ideal world I would reschedule my evening, alas, I must do as I am told.

Tomorrow marks my mothers 10th anniversary as esteemed CEO of her true child.

Her company adorns more attention from her than I ever could.

I sound bitter, I’m not. I have learnt that t...

It’s funny isn’t it

When we are children

We’re taught the tale of love

Meet a man

Have a baby

Build a life

That is the goal

But what if

Sometimes

It isn’t so simple

A man

A woman

We’re told who to love

We’re told there is only one

But how can I choose?

Why do I have to decide?

I love them both equally

I promise it’s true

Both so different

But both I adore

Which one do I choose?

I don’t want ...

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I blinked slowly, my eyes stinging from my elongated stare. As if the letters on my screen would change after a period of time.

Slowly, I took in the words infront of me. The insults, name calling, and assumptions.

Last night I decided to take a different course of my life, do something spontaneous. I had always had a passion for embodying others, dressing up, face paint. ...

I stared at my phone.

Knowing what was coming next.

He hadn’t spoken to me for hours.

Oh how I long for the days I didn’t waste minutes staring at a screen, some how feeling my heart shatter.

The bluntness of his previous replies, daggering me.

‘Surely not again’. I whispered to myself.

Attempting to sooth the pain that had already began, i hummed slowly, quietly.

You would think that I would...

Clink,

The glasses go

What a celebration

A toast

To the new generation

We clap

We laugh

A glorious occasion

But wait

What’s this

You weren’t invited

A glance

A stare

The room goes silent

Laughter again

Of a different kind

Sinister

Malicious

Out of their mind

“Pardon the intrusion”

The stranger chimes

I am the wicked

I am the divine

“For I couldn’t help notice,

You left me behind”

A swish

...