I was too late to save you

An hour late

30 minutes late

20 minutes late

15 minutes late

5 minutes late

1 minute late

30 seconds late

15 seconds early

It took 3 minutes for the ambulance to arrive

2 minutes to get you loaded up

1 minute to take you

30 minutes trying to save you

30 minutes of losing you

1 minute of being told you where gone

1 month of anger

2 moths of rage

3 months ...

When I left that room I knew I wasn’t the same person anymore

Seeing you there in that bed wasn’t what I needed to see left of you

Cold

Pale

Blue

All wrapped up

You where gone

There was nothing I could do about it

Nothing I did could bring you back...

2021 December

We met online he was nice too me first man to not give me shit or be rude to me

2022 we talked more started dating march 14th it was like my heart was filled

2022 June we made plans to live together

2022 August I moved in was great for me and for us my mental health was better

2023 we celebrated our one year anniversary of being together

2023 Mother’s Day I had found out I was ...

Whisper through the wind of the wolf man Michigans Aruban legend

This legend only comes out every 10 years so they say but has sightings year round

Most know about this well because they’ve experienced it them selfs others know

From the Michigan chiller books you seen in libraries or school

Do I believe there’s a wolfman yes I do just as I believe in Bigfoot,unicorns,moth man

I believe there ...

Do you understand grief

I do

Grief is painful

Worse then a bee sting

This pain stays around longer

Forever actually

You never really get over pain

You just learn to understand it

The pain is forever

You’ll always miss then

There thought never actually goes away

Your mind just learns to store it...

Laying in the grass looking at the sky

I wonder how high up you really are

It’s been forever since you’ve passed

You could be way up there id never know where I know my hands couldn’t reach

No matter how high I reach

I know you’re there you leave me signs in the clouds

You give me hope that your up there

I just wish you were near...

“I was forced to save myself, and that forced me to learn how to float....

Once full like the ocean

Once full like the moon

Once so full of happiness

Once filled with hope

I became empty

Empty like a river

Once that flowed

Only flowed with happiness

Now is empty filled with sadness

“Ghost aren’t even this empty”...

I am the eye of the storm

My mind is a storm of rage

Scars that can not be healed

Thoughts that can’t be shared

Fears that aren’t heard loud enough

Not even through the shattered heart I’m now stuck with

I am the storm

What the never calms

Even in its worst paths

It ruins everything ....