Why do I let a man make me feel shit !

Fucking hell I cried for the first time not because I wanted to feel fine but because there was a reason .

I’ve been through many season of cold numb pain the one that makes you question if you’re even real . I’ve dealt with days filled with thunder boiling in my veins we’re everything gets me irritated so don’t make me have to repeat the things I stated be...

I don’t think I can do this anymore !

All the living and breathing is leaving me sore . Im tired of giving second chances maybe I should be alone why do I even invite people to my home . Why do I open up to the wrong people it easy to relate to those who are broken but for them to tell people then lie to my face is really making me feel out of place . I know I shouldn’t talk to them anymore but wi...

I want us to be over .

I want to be free .

I just don’t think you see .

How much you hurt me !

You say you meant well With the I love you . But you never listened to what I had to say you’d just change the subject like your passing the words around like a game .

I wish you’d feel ashamed for what you did posting me over social media without even asking if it alright . But to share my location ...

**We can be lonely together with a rope tied as a teather . We appreciate the silence as we let the world steal our voice as we relish in our choice to stay away from the violence that brews in the light of people that assure you they are right . But it’s hard to see the wrong if you’ve dealt with it for so long . See connection is something you will always miss even from a bitter kiss . They say ...

It’s been awhile since I spoke to my friend I wish I could send her a message to assure her I’m fine but is it worth walking down that line . Their unaware of the step I took that day so close to not being alive the way I dived below the waves hoping to reach the grave so I can assure you when they tell me I’m brave is such a lie cause of the amount of times I’ve tried to die . Honestly I just do...

A prisoner of your mind can really make you blind the lesson you’ve learned and mistakes earned . Yet you stay dwelling in the well of a cell living your life sentence cause speaking about mental health is frowned upon and I can assure that true just look at all the people that have gone . They decided there ship had sailed that everything they done they failed so they took a way out .

They tell ...

They said I’d be okay but the truth is I didn’t want to stay . Wait this won’t take all day ! I want to die that isn’t a lie . I’m tired of being required to fake how I feel to somehow get me to deal with this hell . I’m not like the rest I won’t yell at the top of my lungs or fight with someone I know that not right . I’ll hide away in a shell I’ll just close in and avoid people at all cost so I...

They want to adjust the dial so all I can do is smile . They want me to spill my guts to get me out of this rut. But will it ever be enough to squeeze a ball to allow me to walk a hall . Sounds bizarre I know yet they say it will help me grow . To be able to distract my brain so it doesn’t have the chance to react to the swarm of shadows that enters the room to prevent anxiety from consuming the a...

Tw - self harm / suicide

It’s hard to explain to someone that I’m struggling to survive that I don’t want to be alive . That being around people is so intense you step back in defence always wary of crowds or even speaking out loud .

So sit down grab a drink and I’ll tell you why I seem to sink .

Some days you live for the craze so full of sunny days . Sometimes life gets you down as your lips...