This is home

But why has it changed?

Have I been away too long?

How has this feeling remained?

This is home

A place I left, but came back too

An invisible sting, drew me back

Oh how I’ve missed this view

But now my home is broken in two

Where I should be and where I ran too

I belong to both but to neither fully

A place of dreams, and the place I grew

The city or the town my home

But which to ch...

I’m upside down

The world is spinning

But why are all the creatures grinning?

I’m upside down

Why can’t I stop?

Tell me when the other shoe will drop

I’m upside down

Oh no, not again

It’ll all calm down, but tell me when?

I’m upside down

I can’t do it anymore

My head is getting light, and now it’s sore

I’m still upside down

But when will I fall?

Oh how I wish I could stand proud and tall

Will...

Another year, another cake

They see me wish, my smile fake

I fear getting older

Glancing over my shoulder

Petrified of memories I’ll lose

They sing cheerfully, my ears hear the blues

So I scrapbook, write it all down

Never knowing to stop, look around

By fearing losing moments

I miss the rainbow, ignore the poets

They say life is short, so savour it

Haunted by forgetting, too absent to admit

I’m n...

Hidden in the trees, cement stones litter

The silence perturbs, the nightlife titter

Visits in the dark, the dread beckons

Wandering endless rows, searching sections

Beyond the rust clad gate, wind swirls

Branches yearn for contact, shadows cast the burls

You linger a moment, words you can never find

A soul to tether to the mortal plain, our momentary bind

Your eyes trace the letteres carved, so...

_*TW: dark themes*_

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_“Swallow me whole.”_ I begged. My bright, colorful room filled with nothing but dread. Door shut, thuds of loved ones before they give up. Shouting _“STOP BEING LAZY! You’re such a screw up.”_ I welk in my bed, enacting every berufen I know so that the monsters will leave my head. Confined in my room, weighted with items of tremendous memories. Walls of posters, s...

If I count the ways I love you

No number big enough to go up to

I’d run out of fingers to count on

Need the future to have come and gone

I see you in the glow of the sunrise

And in the warmth of the sunset skies

I feel you in the comfort of our song

I dream of the arms in which I belong

I hear you in the silence, your voice calm and free

Your laughter echoes worlds around me

I love you when you’...

You didn’t see me breaking

Breaking down

Breaking free

Breaking through

Breaking my back for you

Now you get to see me breaking

Breaking up

Breaking hearts

Breaking records

Breaking a smile

Breaking you

Breaking made me

Breaking finally broke you

Aren’t you glad I was okay with you breaking

Breaking me?

LLK....

I screamed so loud, their voices echo while I’m sleeping

When I heard the secrets they were keeping

Fading in conversation to hear them screech

Searing my insides like a glass of bleach

Whispering reminders of failures in my past

Rain on my parade, laying waste to a sunny forecast

Doing anything to escape the internal riot

The curse of having a mind that won’t keep quiet

Avoiding thoughts of min...

Happy Birthday!

They sing

Delicious cake

The candles lit

Only now my wish

It’s been a great day

So many gifts

Eaten so much cake

Laughter

The flames flicker

They cheer

I wish this moment could last

Forever

I dig in

Slice by slice

Till it’s all gone

The plate empty

Happy Birthday!

They sing…

Another cake

The candles lit

I dig in

Slice by slice

Till it’s all gone

The plate empty

No more!

I c...

KNOCK

KNOCK

The echos louder

My door rattles

KNOCK

BANG

They’re going to get in

There’s nothing I can do

BANG

BANG

They’ve stopped knocking

Now they’re banging

They’re getting angry

But.

I’m frozen

I can’t move

Glued.

Tense a muscle

I can’t

Move a limb

I can’t

Scream

I’ve tried

Shallow breaths

Shiver and sweat

Wait.

Silence.

The bang has stopped

Maybe they gave up

Am I safe?

CLICK

Oh...