My words fall out of my mouth.

They fall into the boiling soup bowl

beneath my chin.

Taste

teh-ay-st

I lift the wobbling spoon.

My tongue dies

as the little bumps on it

pop, pop, pop....

A simple message

A simple story.

You didn't need to be that dry.

You know what?

I don't need to care.

I'll act as oblivious as you.

Your brown diary

with green fabric band locking it,

is all I want now.

I need to know,

is what we had true?

Did you ever feel the way I did?

I guess not,

you're just a fat, lying brute

who can't do anything.

You brough me pain

time and time again.

I can't believe...

The new guy.

NEEDS ME.

Please, take me to a far away place

where there are

no such things as

lies and ugliness.

You are just the type of guy I need.

YOU NEED ME.

You will probably never find anyone like me,

probably even no one at all.

Because no one likes you

like I like you.

Come on, you know it's true,

boy.

YOU NEED ME,

to care for you,

because you know you

can't yourself.

the last gu...

On twitter,

on Facebook,

on instagram,

on Snapchat.

happy birthday,

today was fun,

need to make plans,

hey.

you stand out.

youre nothing like them all.

imagine just being

ill with being social.

NO.

you dont have any concerns

or worries about friends and social status,

only family and self care....

On your marks, get set, Go.

The Hating Race has started.

The prize is me.

We have here, presented,

the runner, the bodybuilder and the swimmer.

On your marks, get set, Go.

They stand at the start, energy rushing through their forearms.

The stare dangerously.

The prize is me.

They're too enthusiastic about this,

their feet slowly scraping the ground.

On your marks, get set, Go.

An ear-piercing ...

The beep shuts off,

a straight line appears.

I don't hear anything apart from the

tick, tick, tick.

It's dark here.

I don't have anything to do.

I stand, I stare,

on nothing, at nothing.

My immortality is mortal

which is something

I knew.

The place where I lived before

was better than

this

eternal

screen....

They're all staring,

at me.

What are you looking at?...

Please wake up.

My tongue bites the itty bitty

cold air that provides

a daiky intake of

oxygen.

Full of life and air.

Full of nothingness

and ugliness

and pettiness.

Falling is like a norm for me now

I fall either into your arms

or into the dark void

that is your heart.

You really aren't that good.

You aren't rich,

or handsome

or even tall.

You aren't anything I wanted.

You are just there a...

Pretty, fair

It's all there.

A nice nose, full cheeks, full lips, big eyes.

You truly are the love of my life.

............................................................................

But what would you think of this?

I have already booked the appointment so there's

no point

in cancelling.

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Curly, blonde hair. Hourglass figure. Long eyel...