I’m so tired of the promises

So many are made

So many are broken

They tell me they’re here for me

They tell me they never leave

They tell me it’s okay to not be okay

They tell me they love me

All just to leave

Or hide

Or give up on me

It hurts

And it doesn’t end

They don’t stop coming

And they don’t stop going...

Life has its ups and downs

Why is it always down

I can’t find an up

And somehow it keeps getting lower

Why can’t it stop

I think the same thing every morning

Why can’t my thoughts,

My questions be answered

I just want to know something

I can’t get answers

I want to be done with life

So does my brain

So does my body

Why can’t it just stop...

It never really stops hurting does it

It’s especially hard when you have to keep fighting

When you want to be done with it all

But you have to keep fighting

It’s exhausting

And when you stop

Well now here’s the real you

And I don’t like the real me

I don’t like the fake me either

It never goes away

You’re never truly free

That pain and hurt

That feeling of fear and emptiness

It haunts you

It al...

When will it stop

When will it release me

I’m stuck in the chains

Trapped in my mind

Tourcher

Every other thought

Is a reason of why

I just don’t deserve to live

Never to be free

Never will I be proud

Forced to listen to my thoughts

Every every minute

Let it stop

Give me a key

Open the chains

I just want to be happy...

Sitting in hurt

Nothing to do but wait

But hope

Hoping this feeling won’t stay forever

My heart hurts so bad

Longing to be gone

Tired of fighting itself

Every single minute

So badly needs a rest

But when it rests

It breaks

Nothing but hate to itself

But with no rest

It’s tired

Uncontrollable

And the thoughts go everywhere

It just wants to go

The heartache

That sad hurting feeling

Stuck in my h...

You’re supposed to break in the glove

After you do it’s much better isn’t it

But after a week or two,

It’s broken

Unusable

Garbage

And it’s tossed away

Now go buy a new one

Break that one in

Throw it away

A new one

And so on

Why does it go the other way

Why can’t this one be tossed

Why is Brocken in

And then it becomes garbage

And then it’s handed to the next person

Already broken in

Only to br...

Lock up my feelings

Throw them in a pit

Hide them from everyone

Just somehow get rid of it

Nobody wants them here

Nobody will want to hear

Make them go away

Then maybe they’ll stay near...

Why does it always attack

Why can’t I ever fight back

It always takes me over

Pulling my heart to the floor

Feeling empty and sad

But really there’s nothing bad

It’s still just pulls me down

why would a reason be needed

Dragged to the floor

Happiness always stored

My heart always frowning

Sad and lost and lonely

I hate this thing that is me

As messed up as can be

Nothing smart in its head

A sha...

My heart

Everything hurts

Stabbed by sadness

Over and over

The puddles growing

Eyes soaked

Cheeks dripping

Lonely and lost

Let me go

Let me disappear...

Surrounded by reasons

So much to fight

What do I do

If everything is right

Falling and falling

I just can’t get up

They ask if I’m okay

All I can say is yup

Nobody sees

Nobody will listen

How everything is wrong

No in horrible condition

But tied in the ground

No way to be happy

I’ve been taken

I just want to be free...