The mirrors in my mind

Reflect my thoughts

It’s easy to get lost

When I can’t find the true side

The mirrors in my mind

Remind me of the times

Always reflecting the past

Even if I wish they would cast

The mirrors in my mind

Are keeping me awake

And they won’t stop

Sometimes I wish an earthquake

Would come along and shatter them

Taking me along with them

If they shattered I would die

...

If you know me well enough

You would know

That I draw stars on my hand

Constantly

If I run out of room

I keep going

On every surface

The table

Your paper

Your hand

Now, no one knows

That each star I draw

No matter how big or small

Has a meaning

An emotion

A thought

I might draw a star if I’m feeling lonley

Itll be my friend

Or maybe Im angry

I can sketch it onto my hand

You see what worries ...

Amber skys

Abstract clouds

Arouse my thougts

And awaken my dreams

A picture of you

Apears in my mind

A beautiful face

A beautiful mind...

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Trigger Warning- suicide

I need to love myself?

Id rather love you

Running through parking lots

Drive throughs

Why did you leave me?

At my darkest time?

You say I can’t love you

If i dont love myself

But babe, why does it hurt so much?

I watch the days pass by on paper,

The weeks seem faster then the days

And who is she?

If Im so special if im so special why am I so easily replaced?

The wo...

After a six hour car drive, we finally arive at the campgrounds. I jab Alex in the ribs to wake him up, and then get out of the car. I breath in the smell of fresh air, smelling the aroma of pine needles and hearing the distant gurgle of a river. I walk to the back of our car and open the hatch.

“Umm- Alex? Where is the tent? Where is the food? All I see is beer and marshmallows.

“Huh?” Alex say...

Im surviving through the days

Eat, drink, sleep

Sometime i forget to clean

But theres no need to weep

I go through the motions

Dont let myself think

I wonder if when im 90-something

Surviving my last days

If ill find out i never lived

I survived...

We lay on your couch

And we tell each other secrets

Your dads an alcoholic

And knows every drug in existence

I wonder why

I never told

Because I trusted you most

I left out a secret or two

Im not as old as I said

So when you found out

You were mad

We dont speak

You go to collage

I stay in our hometown

Slowly falling apart

Goodbye, almost lover

Inspired by ‘The Way I Used To Be’ by Amber S...

TW

Always here

But always alone

Can’t find a person

Do they even know?

Even in crowds

For I feel far off

Got myself bleeding

How can I stop?

I don’t feel alive

Jokes aren’t funny

Kids still laugh

Lots of colors turn to

Muted hues

No more colors

Others don’t know

People don’t see

Quiet, please, I can’t breath

Red seeps through my sleeves

Sharp objects peirce

Trying to bring me back

Ugly scars...

Today is the day

I already knew

But somehow the letter bring emotions anew

I felt the loss

That one August night

I didn’t want to think

What I had felt

But emotions aside

What shall I do

I don’t know how I will live

Without you...