I teeter on the line between happiness and joy

They say I’m the happiest in the ensemble

Although I consider quitting every day

But I am most joyful when I am on my podium

Leading our band to success

I swing between the bounds of happiness and joy

Everyone thinks I’m happy to be at church

Even though I wish I was with different people

But I am most joyful praising the Lord

The real reason I keep...

Ever since I was a child I knew I was different

The games I played in my mind

Nobody understood why I thought the way I did

Why I said the things I said

All my friends seemed to be invisible

They’d creep through my walls to check in on me at night

My mother told me not to say things like that

Supposedly its off putting

I don’t know why I see the things I do

And I wish I knew why nobody else coul...

Every word that escapes my lips

Seems to be silenced by the wall in your mind

My thoughts seem to be pushed back by your important agenda

Can you even hear me?

I beg you to stop

To quit pushing as hard as you do

But your goals have other ideas for my future

Can you even hear me?

My wishes are just imaginary

Compared to your big dreams that have replaced them

I don’t think you really know me any...

I don’t remember the last time I smiled. I can’t close my eyes and hear the last laugh that escaped my lips. Pieces of my former self cluttered the walls of my bedroom. My eyes dart around looking at old photographs and I pretend I don’t notice the salty wetness that is making its way down my cheeks. Memories of the last time I left my bed are fading further and further away. The heaviness in my c...

Nobody sees the beauty of being bored

The stillness of having nothing to do

It’s a simple sign to the soul

To take a breath

To count the specks of paint on the ceiling

People say watching paint dry is a bore

Watching the individual drips fall down and harden

Their lifespan so short

Similar to our own

Reminding us to slow down

Watching the clouds is an art nobody will mention

Seeing the shapes s...

If I count the ways I love you

It would be like trying to count the stars

For the ways you are loved is infinite

If I count the ways I love you

It would be as if I was collecting each shell on the beach

For the ways you are loved are individually unique

If I count the ways I love you

It would take hours upon hours

For I’ve never loved anyone in the ways I love you...

A loud thud was the last thing I heard before everything went black. My body had finally collapsed from the built up exhaustion I had felt coming on for the past few months. All my hard work and continuous overworking had finally caught up with me.

Class after class and workshop after workshop had been causing me to be running on energy drinks alone for about three months up until now. Late nigh...

I would be anything for you

I’d be the leader you have always wanted me to be

I’d be the conductor you’ve worked for me to become

I’d be the best flautist you’ve been wishing I was

If it would really make you proud

I would do anything for you

I’d practice hours each day to achieve your dreams

I’d teach others around me to accomplish the goals you’ve set

I’d make top chair in the state

If you woul...

“If desires are a flame, then I am a wildfire”

If passion is a plant, then I am a weeping willow

If love was determined by how much rain was falling from the sky

I would cause a thunderstorm

For who am I if I am not loving...

Every day felt like a countdown, each tick of the clock was a reminder that sanity was slipping through his fingers. The wooden floor was cool against the bottom of his feet, trying to pull him back to reality. He paced back and forth in the dimly lit room, unable to sleep due to the terrors that plague his never resting mind. 

His head snaps from left to right, scanning his surroundings. He conti...