Would you love me if I asked you to?

Still love me if I dared,

to take the leap, unveil my heart

A secret never shared

Could you love me like you needed to?

Still love me when it hurts?

Believe me when I’m real with you,

& trust me with your worsts?

You only know one side of me

You’ve never seen me cry

I want to open up to you

Don’t want to live a lie

Would you love me when the lights turn off?...

When

Did I

Start losing my

Mind

When

Did lies

Take over my

Life

Where

Am I

If I close my

Eyes

(When’s

The last time

I closed my

Eyes?)

& if

The dreams I feel

Are real

& sweet

Life with you so

Surreal

What if

That life just isn’t real

Life just isn’t real

You know I

Overthink

& Over-plan

‘Cause Underneath

All I am

Is terrified

Mortified

Wonder why

I want to cry

I love myself

Yet paral...

I think I messed up

Panicked, thought I’d hop aboard “the road less taken”

Yeah… right

I see the history forspoken

Decades of footsteps, doctrinal in pose

A mission etched in concrete

A path paved in newly cobbled stone

The road ahead is lucrious

A life so bold, no doubt

But my stomach sinks, this isn’t me

Suppressing questions from myself

Yet again I raise the gavel

Calling ‘order’ on my th...

You’ll always be my maybe

The love that could have been

Haven’t seen you in some time now

But it’s like you’ve never left

Your presence makes it brighter

Our humors intertwine

You taught me how to wonder

You let me see you cry

If only times were different

& I didn’t live so blind

I picture endless laughter

A peaceful love so right

We’re living different lives now

Summer only lasts so long

I’l...

I watch the time pass by from my bedside

Kept from sleep as the minutes tick by

‘Cause a year ago I’d be calling you

Celebrating the thought of you in my life

I can’t pinpoint the moment you left me

No big fight or stinging last words

All I know are my calls are unanswered

Text messages opened to no response

I see pictures you post with your new friends

Oh how I’m glad for the ones by your side...

I pull the flowers from my hair

And rehang my favorite dress

Return my shoes back to my closet

Dim the lights, ready for bed

I hear the music through the window

Hear them laughing down the hall

Did they notice I was missing?

Would they question it at all?

Try pretending nothing hurts me

Getting wrapped up in my phone

But tuning out the world around me

Is a horrid way to cope

No, I never got ...

All I want is to talk things out…

Because this broken-record, awkward, screeching silence is eating me up, and I want to scream, but the silence is too heavy… so here I am.

Cards laid out, laying bare, bleeding out ‘cross your kitchen table.

Do you think you could drop your walls for just a moment and let me see what’s bothering you?

Everything, share it all?

For just this moment, just this c...

I re-read conversations

Scroll back to once told jokes

Remember your opinions

And your smile through the phone

First year we walked The Gardens

Last Summer made Fall plans

Had visions of forever

Full trust

The best of friends

Your birthday’s in my calendar

Your face lights up my screen

Remember that time

Back in ‘09

We were happy you and me?

But you’ve left for Mississippi

And you’ve never ke...

“Has anyone seen Jessica?”

It was a typical day at Mt. Shirley’s. Us girls were all huddled behind the playground, hiding from a mob of boys who just spent the past 15 minutes chasing us around the school. Don’t be the slowest, don’t stand alone. Those were the rules I lived by. I didn’t know what would happen if I was caught - still don’t - but the thought alone kept me running. All was good...

PRESENT DAY

“Isaac’s hosting a party tonight at 6, I’ll meet u there”

It was my one year anniversary with Kyle, and he wanted to spend it getting drunk at Isaac’s party. Isaac, his sarcastic friend who’s jokes never fail to ruin my mood. ‘Happy anniversary to me.’ It’s 5:25pm, and I know I should be wrapping up ready to go, but I can’t help drag this out as long as possible, refusing to do so...