Ellipsis

Such is the life of the writer to fear the blank page so intensely that it prevents them from engaging in the hobby they so desperately and passionately love.

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Ellipsis

Such is the life of the writer to fear the blank page so intensely that it prevents them from engaging in the hobby they so desperately and passionately love.

Writings

Followers

Following

Chasing A Fleeting Feeling

Ellipsis

6 min read

The dirt sank slightly under his soft footsteps. The sun shined overhead, casting a warm glow on the grassy field in front of him. He went on walks frequently, sometimes for a few minutes, sometimes for a few hours. On these days, with nice weather, he’d walk until he forgot where he was going. Sometimes it felt like days, weeks or even years, but time no longer bothered him.

He dwelled on his ti...

Drama

So You Hide

Ellipsis

1 min read

You fear what you are,

What you have been.

You change and change

And force yourself through

Vicious cycles of

Destruction and reconstruction.

You long to leave yourself behind,

The true you,

But who are you now?

Do you recognize the face

In the mirror

With the sunken, empty eyes

And the half-hearted, artificial smile

That you’ve fought so hard

Just to maintain,

Just to hate day after day?

Do you k...

Poetry

Happy Mother’s Day

Ellipsis

2 min read

You used to be so good

At biding your time.

You would sit and wait,

And drink and waste away

Patiently.

You sought inner peace

But lacked the means to achieve it.

You would find excuses

To justify hurting everyone and yourself,

Every time.

I would scream until

Tears rolled down my cheeks

Until my voice failed me

Begging and pleading

Desperately.

Why?

I asked of you.

Why?

I asked of God.

I whis...

Poetry

Endure, Defiantly

Ellipsis

1 min read

A silent judgment

Passed on a downcast gaze,

Tearing at the skin,

Desperate to sink in

And root itself

In insecurities.

Scorching sadness

Ravaging through

A droughted mind.

A doubted self,

Patiently allowing

Parasitic feelings

To leech away

Each and every

Nostalgia-plagued

Happy memory.

Replacing faint recollections

Of long-gone yesterdays

With distorted truths from

A parallel past,

Inflicting an ...

Poetry

The Cowardice In Fear

Ellipsis

1 min read

On a rooftop unfamiliar,

A ledge so inviting,

Death’s warm embrace waiting

At the bottom of a

Half-hearted attempt to fly.

Contemplating,

Finding the strength to take

A weightless step

Then losing it

To the cowardice in fear.

Fate’s twisted desire

To make a sufferer

Of a good man

Or the fate of the sufferer

To become a good man.

In retrospect,

A life half-lived,

A man half-loved,

A memory forgotte...

Poetry

A Faded Polaroid

Ellipsis

1 min read

I look at the photographs of us

And see your features

Etched into my DNA.

The way my face

Resembles yours

Makes my heart sink

Because I know

That these photographs

Are the closest I’ll ever be

To seeing your face again.

I want to tear them apart

So I don’t have to think of you

But I can’t bring myself to do it.

I just stare with empty eyes

Waiting for you to reanimate

From a faded Polaroid

Like my...

Poetry

If Only

Ellipsis

2 min read

I stared at the stars above

To avoid your moonlit eyes

As you gazed a hole

Through my manipulative facade.

In hindsight

Should’ve split my chest open

And spilled my heart to you.

But in emotional honesty

Lies weakness

Because

When I admit my faults

Verbally to you

I must accept them

Mentally myself.

In doing so

I would destroy the

Paper-mache house

I’ve built over so many years

To protect myself...

Poetry

The Beauty Of Sadness

Ellipsis

1 min read

The sun cascades through the leaves above

As tears dam in your eyes then burst down your reddened cheeks.

I have so many questions

And only you have the answers

But in my finite wisdom

I hesitate to speak

I hesitate to act

Instead watching like a fool

As your soul pours out from your eyes

And elegantly traces the soft curve of your jawline

Dripping down into your hands

And spilling through your fi...

Poetry

Privilege

Ellipsis

1 min read

Were it so simple to love you wholly

My arms would bear far fewer scars

My heart would still beat in tune

And my eyes would still have the glint of hope

That you said reminded you of the stars above.

For far too long I’ve sacrificed myself

For the betterment of us

But your perception of our joint life

Comes from privilege.

You never fought for love

Not the way that I have

And it tears me apart kno...

Poetry

I Hear Your Name In Passing

Ellipsis

1 min read

I hear your name in passing

Between the distant hisses

Of brakes on a phantom train

Headed for nowhere.

The station is empty

And yet here I am

Waiting for more of your

Words of affirmation

With only half-hearted meaning

Scribed between the letters.

I guess in my delusion

I failed to see

That all you are is

Smoke in mirrors.

The illusion of safety

That I welcomed so easily

That you handed to me

On ...

Poetry