You remind me of cold milk on the counter. 

Good at first, when it's right out of the fridge. 

When water beads on the outside of the glass 

And creates a ring on the counter. 

But after a little while 

The milk warms to the same temperature as the room. 

It's not too bad but it's not as good as before. 

Straight out of the fridge. 

After an hour the milk is warm. 

There's no water beads on the ou...

I cant bring myself to look at you anymore

To meet the eyes I’d been so familiar with.

Eyes I’d grown up with are colder, stranger than before.

I don’t know who you are anymore.

Your knocking on my door but I cannot let you in.

The monster hangs behind you.

Hiding as it sinks into your back.

You offer support but your support isn’t supporting.

Instead it’s poisoning.

You offer comfort bu...

I reach for you in the dark

Finger tips brushing

I reach but yet I’m flinching away.

Uncertainty poisoning my brain.

The door to my mind is jammed

Too afraid to let you in.

Can you see the state I’m in.

I’m uncertain,

What if you hurt me?

After knowing me, seeing every bit of me

What if you’ll leave?

If I let you in

I lose control of being the person you think I am.

Who am I?

Will ...

As I look at the kid in the mirror I seen war torn eyes.

Something about them was just so tired, but yet those scared eyes still peered through the dark to see the light for others.

Poetic words spoken from their mouth to make others feel at peace, to find sense in but what about them?

Empathy seeping from their pores like the weeping of waterfalls, all for others but none for themselves.

...

If your hand could reach inside my heart, what would you do with it?

Would you rip it out my chest?

Would you take of the pain?

The glass shards of words that borrowed into my skin?

If you looked inside would you run and hide?

What you’d see would hurt your eyes

Leaving you blind.

Would you look at me the same

Or would you turn and walk away?

Like everyone else

Every other day.

Or w...

Mock me

Tease me

Use me as comedy

Act like it’s my fault.

You fell first

You said it first

Pin me with blame,

Narcissistic behavior

You are still at fault

As much as I am

Do whatever you you need to do

To make you feel bigger

Behind my back because you know

I’ll bite back

But you know he won’t

Punching bag

You treat him badly

Use me as a weapon

Deep down

Your ...

Cold water,

Cold eyes,

Cold words,

All make for a harsh winter.

I’m freezing

My limbs are shaking,

My minds in hase

I fight and fight

My heart grows colder

“Accept it” my mind whispers

“Accept the cold”

I fight

“Let it go and watch it walk away “

Limbs loosen

“Let it in”

I let it in

It still hurt and my body shook

Until finally, the chill stopped....

Mirror mirror on the wall

Why am I so insecure

I look in the mirror my stomach falls,

Too small waist, with large hips.

Small body

Baby face

Stare at me

They stare at me.

Call me names and fantasize.

When I look in the mirror I keep staring

Mirror mirror on the wall

I want them to see through my eyes...

You hold me in your arms

And kiss me softly

It feels like minutes when hours pass

But when you leaves I watch

It feels like hours when it’s been seconds

When you leave it feels like forever till I see you again

And it lasts forever when you leave....

Wishing and dreaming won’t get you anything , just like crying won’t make anyone come back after leaving.

What can I say there is no such thing as wishing stars.

Only balls of fire that burn till they explode and you will never see them break or look for them once they’ve disappeared.

You won’t notice when a few in a billion stars have burnt out but you’ll notice when the sun starts to set, th...