Words rolling off my tongue

whispering

screaming

begging you to notice

anyone to notice, really

to notice the wet stains on the pillow

to notice the sadness in the angry words

that the glitter in our eyes is more than just the spark of life

please

listen to me

and yet

you look at me

and ask me

Have you said something?...

you poison my thoughts

flowing through every vein of my body

i need an antidote, a cure, a remedy

the universe

not revolving around the sun

but revolving around you

if i’m honest

you always outshone the sun and the stars and the moon

i need an antidote, a cure, a remedy

but to be fair

it is not you who poisons my thoughts

how could it be you

if you’re my antidote, my cure, my remedy...

what’s most important?

you.

what’s most important?

the way you laugh.

i can’t seem to get enough from your laughter

because honestly?

it’s salvation.

what’s most important?

your touch.

electrifying and yet so calming

lifting one up into the highest levels of the sky and yet so grounding.

what’s most important?

your feelings.

if you’re sad and if you’re happy.

if you’re content.

i want...

forever.

i want that every moment with you lasts for an eternity.

you make life last forever. the moment i look in your eyes i feel like time stops, everything stops.

the world stops spinning, you and i are the only ones breathing.

breathing the same air, watching the same clouds in the sky.

i want to lose myself in your presence, in your smell. and god, you’re so heavenly. heavenly charming, i...

In the heart of the city, under the neon lights, our paths crossed, igniting endless nights.

That night/ I realized not the moon nor the stars were lightening up my world

That night/ I realized it was you

The way your green eyes were shimmering under the dark night sky

and that was the first time I actually realized how beautiful they were, not the moon and not the stars;

but your eyes.

I neve...

Every time I am near you, I feel like I can finally breathe.

But at the same time, the oxygen never fills my lungs.

I feel so much, but can only show so little.

Because now, now I am only one of many.

I cant help but be fearful of what's coming/

I dont want to lose you in the chaos of my feelings

Why, why right now and why you?

Why do I feel like you're the sun shining in my face, warming my...

Every day was the same.

The sound of the alarm.

The same routine.

But one day, it changed. One day, getting up wasn’t hard anymore.

Every single morning was a gift, no matter if the sun shone or if drops fell from the sky.

the birds sang their song.

the world felt full of life.

the world felt alive....

I hated her. I hated the way she looked, the way she talked. The way she moved.

Her youthful smile, the long, blond hair.

I hated her, because she was everything I was not. Envy. Jealousy.

But eventually, even she grew up. Eventually, she lost her youthful smile, substituted by wrinkles. Her blond hair turned grey and her flowing movements became stiff.

I hated her, but not anymore....

today was the day we said goodbye.

it hurt, not because i was saying goodbye to the past, but because i said goodbye to the future....

I hate you.

I love you.

Nothing could be more of an opposite like those emotions.

emotions so deep

taking up all the space in our bodies

poisonings our thoughts

filling our words

hate and love

substituting the oxygen in our lungs.

I hate you.

I love you....