The eerie coldness wrap around my heart,

I can’t breath.

The walls are whispering

About the time when they were dust.

My brain is yelling

About the time when I was happy

I don’t hear them,

My ears and eyes are disconnected,

Like the landline on my wall.

No one in or out.

The doors are locked from the inside

The key is outside.

A paradox my brain wont even attempt to solve.

My coldness of my twin s...

My heart aches

Black sticky tar dripping

Onto my lungs, stomach, liver.

Engulfing me in darkness

and clinging to my chest.

Dark syrup block the path

From body to brain.

My blood mixes with it,

A murky brown colour.

Shadows fill every inch of my body.

Depression runs through my veins

In and out

My heart pumps it around

Not aware the difference

Between good and bad blood.

Doing its job as it should...

My stomach curls

As my sleeve roll up,

Every line, a tear-welling reminder.

When life was barely life,

A whisper of a year I’d like to forget,

The vision of my moms twisted frown.

My head pounds and my eyes blur,

My fingers trace the imperfect lines.

They resurface as memories,

Littered across my skin in the shape of shame.

Old as well as older,

Tales of a lifetime ago

Reminds me that I will heal...

The house is silent

The snoring and stirring of a parent

The bathroom tiles are ice

Against my warm but bloody thighs.

In the morning they will find me

Soaked in blood and misery

They’ll worry where they went wrong

And I’ll tell them if I could

The things and things among.

My voice would quiver and break

As my hand leaves letters in its wake.

Apologetic and sincere

As my time grows thinner.

Id w...