Love is the lie that keeps us alive

And the very thought of you not loving me,

Was paralyzing not so long ago…

Thinking back… oh how I begged you,

Hot, salty tears seemed to stain my face for days

And you, hundreds of miles away

Tucked away in your bunk… rolling on 18 wheels

Further and further away from us you drive

No responsibility, no one to answer to, no one to hold you accountable or re...

My moods seem to change with the tides

I do not find this contrary to my very nature

But to others I’m the epitome of contradiction

On my cool and casual surface

It seems as if I’m a soft and gentle rain,

A prayer that’s been answered

On a scorching hot day

Mr. Weather man ain’t saying nothing about a storm

He assumes just like the rest of em’…

The rain will pass by in the mornin’

But ...

February

Twenty-fifth

-Four years later

June the sixth

It’s been, One thousand,

Five hundred

Sixty-three days -

Since I’ve held you…

Ten tiny fingers,

And

Ten tiny toes,

My red hair,

And, your daddy’s nose

141 and 143

Two blue ribbons

But, one was stolen from me

The two of you ripped from my womb too soon

But as long as both breath

Hope c...

Sometimes I just want to be held… nothing more, nothing less

Something about that makes me feel safe.

Are you capable of that?

… just being present for nothing but, just to be?

Still waters run deep, therefore my surface seems placid but, my undercurrent is strong and difficult to navigate at times.

So I ask… What kind of swimmer are you?

Do you prefer wadding in still shallow water?

Or do you d...

I woke up this morning and,

everything felt different

The snap of the straw echoing

my irrelevance

The sting of these blisters and

bruises of anger

Have left their stain from the chains

You ordained-

Again and again

and again!

But no more…

For today I have awakened

And you had been warned-

I’m one tear away from crying my last

And one step away from making you my past

The time to make am...