Someone is dead and gone I haven’t stopped crying

Nobody warned me of the feelings That accompany somebody dying

I step inside and look around I don’t know this place

Though it’s my childhood home It’s not the same anymore, that’s not the case

I feel alone Which is different than lonely

I can barely breathe My chest is heavy, I wish somebody told me

I feel like I’m endlessly screaming Into ...

I did what I had to I wish there was a better way I knew

It’s kill or be killed And my dreams need to be fulfilled

I’m sorry to those I hurt To those I left laying in the dirt

But it’s survival of the fittest My conscious ran to hide in the middest

I’ll never be the same I’m feral now, I’ll never be tame

Nightmares will haunt me It’s dead bodies on the ground that I see

I hope that they wi...

In my world, quiet is a luxury, owned by none.  Besides certain criminals of course. These days, everything talks. Billboards, pictures, your bed, the walls. Even bandages. And, if no one knew better, it might be a bit creepy. But, since no one does, it’s just the world as we know it. Day by day.  And this specific day that I speak of started at promptly eight in the morning, when my bed woke me u...

{this was a story I wrote as a result of drinking coffee too late and scribbling in my notebook at 1:30 in the morning. Enjoy}

It’s too quiet. It’s always quiet. They think I’m crazy. The doctors. Words like manic and schizophrenic are used. But that was when i could be with them. Now I sit in my room. Soft white cushions cover every inch. They used the word solitary. They think I’m alone. I’m ...

Life is in my hands It’s always my choice

It’s up to me to decide No one else has a voice

Who will I take To my home today

Everyone hates me They don’t want loved ones taken away

Of course I feel bad That they can’t roam the earth

But when I take them away Someone else gives birth

It’s a beautiful cycle Of which I’m in control

Every day I welcome in A new lost soul

I am death And you m...

DIARY ENTRY #7

Date: October 22

Days gone: 2.5

I made it down the mountain without falling… mostly. I slid down a few rocks but honestly it was fun. My bags are right where I left them and I instantly ate the other half of my sandwich as soon as I touched flat grassy ground.

Surprisingly, my hair was still in the Dutch braids from two days ago. Wow, had it only been two days? Feels longer. I...

DIARY ENTRY #6

Date: October 21

Days gone: 2

This is so freaking awesome!! As soon as I woke up I decided today was a hiking day. The sun is shining and there’s a nice gentle breeze. I leave my suitcase and backpack where they are and clamour up unto the rocks. Surprisingly, the mountain is mostly rock and barely overgrown. I’ve got a water bottle with me and I plan to go all the way to the to...

DIARY ENTRY #5

Date: October 20

Days gone: 1.5

I made it!! The sun is starting to set, bathing the enourmous mountains and sparkling river in a wash of pinks, oranges and yellows.

Honestly, when I stepped out of the woods and into the clearing, I audibly gasped. I pushed through overgrown grasses and now I’ve dumped my stuff and I’m sitting at the base of the mountain I plan to hike tomorrow...

DIARY ENTRY #4

Date: October 19

Days gone: 1

I woke up where I fell asleep so that’s a good sign. Day one done and I haven’t been mauled or kidnapped. Looking good from here on out.

Today I’m gonna do something fun and spontaneous. The GPS I looked at when I briefly turned my phone on showed me that these woods end soon if I walk south and open into mountains and fields and a big river. Soun...

DIARY ENTRY #3

Date: October 18

Days gone: 0.75

I got approximately nowhere. It’s 8:00 PM now and I’ve been walking all day. I’m so tired I could fall over. I took some breaks to rest and drink water, but I’ve walked about 20 miles, so my Fitbit says. I’m not sure if that’s good or bad, but I know it’s not far enough. I wanna go on a real adventure, not wander just to the outskirts of my town....