Everything feels upside down.

It feels wrong.

How could I fix this?

Do I make or break?

Strong as heartbreak.

I’ll find it one day.

The words I need to find.

Sometimes it’s dark,

Sometimes it’s bright.

Either way I’ll always be upside down.

How do I find the exit to this hell,

everything I do, everywhere I go.

It never goes away.

The dizziness,

of being upside down....

I felt the rush, of the bubbles in my stomach. I would’ve never thought this would happen to someone like me. Your eyes make me nervous like you are looking at ME. I’ve never had that before. No one has ever seen me. You do though. When I looked into your eyes I know I wanted you. I felt a connection like dots connecting on a board. It’s like the first leave that falls of a tree in autumn. I want ...

I find myself,

waiting,

hoping, that you’d leave.

It’s a dream.

Then I wonder,

What if I leave?

What if I give up on everything,

everything we’ve had.

It’s the fear in me that forces it.

I don’t wanna leave,

but it feels as if I have to.

To protect you.

To save you,

from the hurt that I’ll cause.

It’s never over,

It never will be over.

Until I stop it.

I feel held down.

Forced to stay.

I don’t wan...