For almost 26 years I didn’t regret one thing in my life. I had made some stupid choices along the way but they all made me who I am today, and I’m happy with that. But the day before my 26th birthday, while on my Honeymoon and in my second destination, I was told via Skype that my only Grandfather wasn’t just sick, he was now terminal. He had been admitted to hospital and was “comfortable”. My m...

The song by The Black Eyed Peas always sends a euphoric chill up my back. It was years ago now, but this song reigned over a time where I was alone and confused. Probably the first time of many that these emotions would occur together, it incorporates a love for someone that I still miss.

When the song plays my first visual memory is of sitting on a bus. My first day at my most memorable job, a p...

I long for the silence,

The nothing, infinite.

A fear of the shame,

The stopping, definite.

Permanent sleep as the darkness encroaches,

Sirens outside, conversation approaches.

'Stay with me'

Ignorance!

An accident here did not happen.

Embrace me for the last

Flashings of the past

Finally feeling

Surrounders reeling

Dying on the inside

Now finally living

...

She fell through the ground,

in the rain.

She fell through the ground,

in the snow.

She fell through the ground,

in the sun.

She fell through the ground,

every night.

Dreams and reality blend like paint,

Creating an image—

in life and in mind—

of the pain and the longing never left quite behind.

She falls and falls in the bottomless nothing,

Losing control of her mind and her life.

I...

Cold and dark

Wet and bubbly

Fizzling and gurgling

I want to taste you

Sugary sweet

Refreshing and rough

Scratching my throat

Soothing my soul

Soda goodness

Liquid gold

Black

Cola

Finished

...

On this annual Valentine’s Day,

I will write you a sonnet.

I will shine my love on you,

As bright as a close-passing comet.

You asked me to show up,

And that’s what I’ll do.

I’ll do what’s uncomfy,

Because I love you.

So on this one day,

Of the three sixty-five,

I will give you my everything,

Till I'm no longer alive.

So on this one day,

Appreciate the rare,

To point out the obvious

That I ob...

Decimated. The world had changed.

There were still races, we still felt overpopulated, we were still fighting with each other,

but now we were few. Cramped together on an island where we had found safety surrounded by water. We had all travelled here by boat when we had heard over the radio that we might be able to survive what was happening.

Everyone I had known was dead. My husband. My chil...

Touching you as though you are still

Here, with me.

Each night, never enough.

Blaming you for leaving me, our nightly meetings

Effortlessly alleviating the

Anger I feel when awake and missing

U

Tonight I will close my eyes and the

Yearning for your closeness will be satisfied

Our timeline

Forever broken by your death

Becomes my

Existence.

I spent my days in bed,

Not being able to get up o...

I’m addicted to you. I wish there were 12 steps to remove you from my life. You make me miserable and I just don’t know who I am because of you.

You got me hooked on purpose to play with my head and it has changed my soul. You have rearranged my foundation and now I stand on ground that wants to fall beneath me. At times I want to cut myself and watch it bleed just to feel something again. You to...

Paige stood in silence, her forehead resting against the inside of the wardrobe wall. Surrounded by clothing she stood inside a box full of shoes. Hidden in darkness, she took silent breaths while listening for footsteps. Where had Frank gone?

….. Two Hours Earlier …….

It was boiling. Sitting on the couch, the pathetic breeze from the small fan did nothing to cool Paige. Perfect domes of glist...