I was diagnosed with schizoeffective 20 years ago and I was on a lot of mental health meds and in an out of the hospital and they drugged me pretty heavily and nothing worked no one screened me for anything and I didn’t feel like myself and i was like a zombie and I couldn’t think straight I didn’t have motivation and I d

Couldn’t stay awake I couldn’t even watch the kids or help my mom bc I was mess and every time went out in the community I would always end up in the hospital then I would end up in inpatient and they would drug me so much that I felt numbed and not myself and I would always have melt downs and they put me on medication that made me worse and it would actually cause more hallucinations and more anxiety and it didn’t even work I would tell my doctor that it’s not helping me and they wouldn’t care they just kept adding more medication to me and i would be good for a while then I wouldn’t be good and it was a cycle and one day I went to cedar hills they sent me to a medical hospital for a cough then they sent me to unity mental health emergency room and the psychiatrist there told me that it wasn’t hallucinations that it was autism

And they had me do Charlie Health and I was in Charlie Health for a week or two and ended up at rainier spring then I started it up again and I found mindful therapy group one psychiatrist didn’t like the fact that I was on supplements so I switched psychiatrist I asked to be put on guafacine and cyproheptdine and she started tapering me off of Abilify and I switched psychiatrist and he screened me for everything and he told me I have severe adhd and I’ve been on guafacine and cyproheptdine for 1 months and no meltdown and I go from meltdown every day and hospital visits multiple times a week and then I got on these medication and a switch came on and no meltdown and I can have freedom and I’ve been going to coffee shops every single day except one day and do Bible study I have delight in me and people can see a difference in me and I have joy and I’ve been doing Charlie health for the last 3 months and I will go down hour in 2 weeks but I have god in me and go to verses if I’m feeling down for affirmations and a gratitude Christian journal and I have god time for an hour and a half every day and I feel great and in Charlie Health I have learned to think if I’m having an off day that I can ask my self is it safe for me to go out or should I stay home and is this thought true or a fact and I’ve learned to write about my past and let go of it and write sorry letter to who ever it was affected by and forgive myself and give myself compassion like giving myself grace and don’t be so hard on my self and and loving myself by self affirmation but I use bible verses for affirmations and I Learned writing strength and weakness and trigger that is a trigger for my anxiety and trauma writing letters about the past trauma release is the anger behind it when I’m feeling overstimulated to deep compresses In a quiet room by journal how am feeling and what the outcome is and how am I greatful and turn the negativity to positive for instance I hate this day so I’m going to a say this day is good I read

My bible and went to the library for more books and god has my hand those are intrusive thoughts because it’s not true I don’t actually Hate today I love my self and I accept who Iam Charlie Health has shown me that I am smart and that it’s okay to have feelings and it’s okay to express it some how If it free writing or gratitude or writing a story or prompts but the most thing is the coping tool is reading the Bible it has given me joy and light in my world that everyone has gift like even in a negative thought you still can turn it into a positive out come and if you can do that which is called thoughts journal it will help you be happy even if your having a rough moment getting the right doctor/ right diagnosis/ right help you will find relief and feel much better and I drastically changed my diet to berries lots of vegetables and chicken or fish and o use lithium batteries orate and 5 htp and 2 prescriptions and I was taking l-tryptophan for sleep but it was too much for me afterthought nasty other meds got out of your system