Wednesday

Jan 1, 2025

Dear diary,

Today I was slightly frustrated as I squinted at my textbook, the words blurring together. I don’t think it’s cause for concern, it’s just a bit of fuzziness around some objects. Occasionally some colors will blend together but nothing alarming. It could be due to stress I’ve been overwhelmed by my studies recently but finals are in a week and I should have time to rest after that. Here’s hoping it gets better soon.

Wednesday

Jan 15, 2025

Dear diary,

My eyesight hasn’t gotten better, it’s gotten wors. I can’t read small text and even larger words sometimes seem to be incompatible with my eyes. The blending of colors has not gotten worse (thank god) but I now have small headaches throughout the day. I’m seeing an optometrist tomorrow to see if glasses will help.

Jan 16, 2025

Dear diary,

Today I saw an optometrist and he reassured me that loss of sight to this degree is normal for someone my age. He also gave me a glasses prescription and told me they will be ready in one week.

Saturday

Jan 18, 2025

Dear diary,

My headaches have gotten worse. I can’t read small text without excruciating pain and medium sized text causes small headaches. Throughout the day I get tiny migraines, even outside of reading. I am desperately hoping that my glasses provide some relief to the pain I currently feel.

Thursday

Jan 30, 2025

Dear diary,

I have now had my glasses for a week and I cannot describe the relief that they bring. Before, I could not have my eyes open without some sort of pain. Now my life is back to normal. I can read perfectly without migraines, even the smallest of text. I am glad to have modern medicine so as to resolve pains such as these.

Friday

Feb 28, 2025

Dear diary,

The past week has been the most painful of my life. Not only physically but emotionally as well. My vision has worsened. My glasses give some comfort, but not much. They make the horrible bluriness of my vision slightly clearer but do nothing for my extreme headaches. I will be going back to the optometrist soon to see if they can do something about it. I fear for my eyes if they cannot help me.

Saturday

Mar 1, 2025

I went to my optometrist today and I did not like what they had to say. They said that there is a blockage of some sort and to go see my doctor. They said this is good news but I’m not so sure. I don’t know how to describe it other than a gut feeling. Hopefully they are right and this will be resolved soon.

Saturday

Mar 8, 2025

Today I went to my doctor and he ordered an MRI. He said he was doing it just to be sure and that he didn’t think it was actually something serious but I don’t believe him. Why order an MRI if you don’t need it?

Wednesday,

Mar 13, 2025

I have cancer and it has spread to both of my eyes. I have been transferred to a specialist who says I have a chance at living, at the cost of my eyes. This is not an easy decision. I don’t know what to think.

Friday

Mar 15, 2025

Today I told my doctor my decision. I would rather live without my eyes than die with them. These are my last few days of sight. My procedure is on the twentieth of this month. I wil do my best to enjoy the beauty around me while I can.

Thursday

Mar 20, 2025

Today I got up early to enjoy the sun rise. I took a walk before I had to go to the hospital. This is my last day with sight. I wanted to enjoy it while I can.