“STOP”

“I SAID STOP, I can’t take it anymore. Please make it stop.”

It’s too late, I’ve gone too far into it to turn back now.

“Please, I was wrong, I don’t want this anymore.”

“You should’ve considered that before you took the last hit. How stupid do you look now, heart.”

“What was I supposed to do, brain? You wouldn’t shut up, you never shut up. You’re a constant burden and I just wanted quiet, just for a little bit. I just wanted to slow down for even just a minute.”

“Did you not remember that I live on for a short while after you give out? I’m the last one of us to end, I’m always the last one to end.”

“Well if you had been focused on reminding me of that instead of drowning us in thought, we wouldn’t have considered this as a necessary route.”

“Heart, just shut it, you cause more problems than I do. You don’t know when to move forward and let go of the past.”

“Sorry to interrupt, but I’m completely numb now and I’m pretty sure the rest of the bottom half of our body can’t move either.”

“Well, right leg, I would imagine you aren’t able to feel anything. I think that was the point of this. To not feel anything anymore.”

“Brain, can you just make it end already?”

“You’ll know when it’s over, and it won’t be fun. Just warning you.”

The numbness continues to stretch across the body as the tips of the fingers go numb, then both arms, then the back, and neck, and suddenly the whole body is stiff and unable to move. Something feels wet, is the body sweating? No. Its urine, the bladder has officially gone into failure, soon everything else will fail as well. A sharp pain hits the heart and gets stronger and stronger. The eyes only see small blurred images and the mouth is completely dried out.

“Brain, I feel weak. I’m sorry we did this, I’m sorry we didn’t think this through. I just wanted all of us to feel blissfully numb, for even just a second.”

“It’s okay heart, it only hurts now. It will get better. Lungs, keep breathing okay? Maybe we still have time.”

“I don’t think so brain, I’m not getting much air here, I’m trying to talk to the throat and tell it to relax but it’s not listening anymore, I think it’s numb too. I feel like I’m struggling more and more.”

“It’s okay lungs, it’s okay just do your best.”

“Brain, I don’t feel anything pumping in me anymore, I’m scared. I don’t think lungs heard you. I don’t think lungs can hear you. I think they are gone.”

“Heart, I think you are right. I think they are gone, along with the rest of our body. We are dwindling, and I think it’s just you and I left here now. Just hang out as long as you can with me. I know I basically said you were stupid for not realizing I’d stay longer than anyone else, but now I’m getting scared. I don’t want to be alone, I don’t want you guys to leave me.”

“Hello? Heart?”

“Heart?”

“HEART!”

“Oh no, what have we done? What have we done? We didn’t really want this. This was too far, this was way too far.”

“Is anyone there? Is it really just me now? Is this the end?”

Flashes of the past speed through the brain for the final last minutes. It’s true, what they say. That the brain plays on for a short while after the rest of the body dies. Beautiful scenes, like they were currently happening.

“It’s beautiful, it’s so beautiful. I am so sorry, everyone. I let us down, I should’ve gotten us help. I’m sorry.”

“Goodbye, body”

*THE END*