April 15th 2025

Hy friend

Today my boss, you remember, the bitchy one that can never remember the simplest part of my job, let allone hers, she threw me under the fing bus during the meeting with the CEO!! I can Not believe the audacity!! After so many yearss of being passed over for promotions, I can’t help but feel like today’s the day. I mean I’ve gotten coffee for this woman, I’ve taken her calls every hour of day and night. When she needed me, or just wanted me I was there.

She has been under so much pressure, pressure I did my best to help her unleash, I gave her everything in me in order to unleash her potential for the company.

Through all this I can’t help but wonder if she would treat me differently if she knew I was meant to take over next month as head of the comany, with my grandmother reiring i am becoming th executive Chair Woman of the board, above both my father and older brother. My family hasn’t been informed.

How can I hope to live up to the example my grandmother has set? After decades of building this empire how can I hope to carry on her legacy?

Without her this company will suffer, I can only prey to keep it from total damnationj. This family needs a strong, intelligent and capable leader. How can I hope to hold a candle to her light?

-A

April 15th

Today my secretary, you remember, the clueless one? I keep calling him, at all hour and half naked when he arrives. He allways forgets my meeting times, this I can’t help but forgive, with his smile… who could reasonably be expected to see nothing but his charm? No matter how many times I remind myself, he is my subordinate, it is the most cliché love ever felt in history. With all my strength I am drawn to him.

The head of finance called a meeting today to discuss the district investments, I mean who could follow this meeting in their own department let allown my own. When the slides started in on individual department spenditures I snapped. When S questioned my decisions on salaries for lower ranking positions I couldn’t hold in the knowledge of how hard living conditions were. Heart beating, I remembered the apartment A brought me to that night, the night i lost all control and Needed the comfort of someone who understood the pressure I was under. It was so dark, dungee and depressing. The apartment I had rented in Graduate school had been better equipped than his.

Our staff deserved a better living wage at every level, regardless of my own emotional attachments, I only HOPE A will be able to forgive me one day. God knows I wouldn’t have the strength to in his shoes.

Pray for me Diary, With all the love in the world may not save me

XoXo

H

April 15th

It snowed today, Lilly would have been deeply annoyed if she had been alive to see it. The weather was particularly volitile all winter, today shouldn’t have been much different if it hadn’t been out anniversary. Lilly would have hated the cold, snowy drifts of the north, knowing this before i would have forced her to accomany me on this trip to examine the new office our comany funded.

Knowing the obvious I can’t help but smile seeing the beautiful put out expression on my wife’s face when I had prieviously informed her our travel plans would have to include visiting a new facility for my workplace. The first time I brought her along she made no move to hide the disappointment and slept soundly, and publicly throughout the meetings.

Andřas and Harry sat in on my presentation today, the corporations budget needed adjusting after Anďas changed the expenditure dividend to include the salary increases for her staff. The Whole team, her grandmother included was well aware of the affair she was having with H, her sexratary. It’s been quite the struggle to watch them sneak into empty offices while convince they weren’t being observed. To watch their relationship flourish while keeping the knowledge of Harry’s enheritance confidential. He would make that announcement when the time is right.

Harry came to me today to draw up a few legal forms, Harry wants to ensure he will no longer have access to Anďreas files after the transition tomorrow. It will already be uncomfortable as it is. Anďreas has never been comfortable with changes to the status quo.

L

April 30th

After two weeks of no sleep I’ve snapped, the look of horror on his face in that meeting, I can’t tell if i am feeling hurt or shame.

The well is too deep to decider where the water comes from.

Anďreas will never forgive me for lying to him, no matter how I colour it. In the same breath can I ever really hope to forgive him for the look of scorn sent my way these weeks?

Have I not shown my devotion this past year? Would I have disclosed the intentons of my involvement within the company I would never have learned of its short comings, only the glazed over lies.

The truth is there has been too much good change to this company to ever really have regrets outside of my own personal hell.

Just knowing that his love was conditional to my being below him in the totem poll is enough to cleave me in two

How can I ever hope to trust again?

I am meeting him for dinner tonight, I will let you know how it goes later

H

April 29th

I almost touched him today, my skin sang with the memory of his touch. When we stood together for the briefest of moments for the press release every hair on my body was on end. As if they were all making an attempt to jump ship and go with him. My love.

The announcement hit me like a ton of bricks, I had thought I was taking care of him, while really he was the one taking care of me taking care of him.

This all still confuses the hell out of me

He asked me to meet him for dinnner tomorrow night, I’m not sure i have the strength to survive his rejection this time.

What should i do Diary?

A