I’m nervous

Thinking a mile a minute

I can’t focus

I feel my glasses fogging

Trying to take in everything

Remember everything

I feel like I’m failing

So unprepared

I’ll fall on my face

I don’t know

when it’ll ever get normal

I want it to be my normal

Why can’t I be normal?

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(Started a part time job. It’s a very people facing job which is wildly out of my comfort zone but trying to force myself to get better in social situations. I am someone who tries to say the least amount possible, so you can imagine that I’m kind of a wreck inside 😅😭)