do you think i’m stupid?

stupid enough not to notice what you’re doing?

everything is different now,

you are different. so different.

it may seem subtle to you but i can see right through it.

you used to be so sweet,

taking me out whenever you got the chance,

holding me when i was sad,

giving me constant compliments.

and i never asked all that.

but it’s not consistent.

it’s shaky, it’s shady,

how distant you’ve been now.

why are you shutting me out?

why are you never happy with me?

why do have have a temper tantrum every time i ask for something?

the old you would have listened,

at least he would have been nice

and not a manchild.

was it something i did?

tell me the truth because i don’t believe that.

why are you so ignorant and dismissive of my struggles?

the old you would have been understanding,

caring, and responsive.

now, you push my issues aside without hesitation.

did you ever care?

or was it all a facade before?

the mask is slipping.

and i know you will try to deny it.

i have a feeling that you don’t love me.

that you never did.

what is this game you’re playing with me?

because i think i want it to end.

i am starting to blame myself,

and you know how much i struggle with self doubt.

maybe i shouldn’t love you if i don’t even love myself.

maybe i’m the problem for loving you in the first place.

why do i hate myself so much when i should hate you more?

i have a challenge for you:

take the mask off.

i dare you.

show me your true colors.

i am not afraid of you.

or your foolish and selfish games.

i want to know the real you.

the you that’s hiding behind the mask.