i hear them say a girl needs a mother but does that apply to me does my mother make me happy? and i know the answer to that but i try not to believe it because my mother is the reason i cry she is the reason i don’t sleep at night she is the pain in my voice and the sadness in my tears my mother is the reason i want to get out of here she is the reason im often burnt out she’s the reason i go on runs my mother is the reason why i date everyone

i don’t know what it’s like to be loved by a mom but i know i don’t forgive you i know that seeing little girls with there nails painted breaks my heart because i know you never cared about me that way i know it hurts me you don’t care that we’re apart i know that i think about you on holidays and especially Christmas i know i want to ask you so many questions but i don’t know how i know losing you wasn’t on my wish list but i know it’s for the best i know im not the one who needs to fix this but i know ive always been the mother in our relationship