Cowboy Dan stand at more door. He’s dressed in a dark brown leather and a button up and blue-blue jeans.One hand was against the door pane and the other has a hand on his belt.His hand was tilted to where I could only see the top of his grey eyes.I stood there in shock. Me and Dan went way back.We were high school best friends, we did everything together, when we graduated and wen to university and to our new adult jobs and careers we had drifted apart. A string of events and a new job opportunity led him back to town and that’s when I ran back into him after all these years.We were both at the annual Christmas market. We started catching up about each other and reminiscing on the old days. I told him how I was a successful author and travelled just like I had always said I would. I chased every little dream I had and no I continue my work from the comfort of my family homes.He had told me about his days on the rode a star in a traveling rodeo , he won many competitions and awards, and began a western celebrity.He found love, or so he thought, with a women and had two kids and settled down in Downtown Houston.Everything felt full circle for him and he had everything he had dream of but he would later learn that his wife had a wandering eye and is a real secret buckle bunny.She had an illustrious fair with a married man and broke up his home.Dan decided to get divorce .He wanted a fresh start and saw a job opportunity to work on farm and packed his bags and two kids and headed out.Just when I was about to leave dan stopped me

“Hey, let me ask you something ?“Dan asks

“Sure, Dan”I replied happily

“Remember Johnny?”, Johnny was our mutual ginger friend. He was super nerdy and energetic.He was immature but in a good way. Johnny was a good kid and was super funny.

“Yes, OMG, I miss him. Have you heard from him since high school?”I asked

“Sadly no, but I was just wanted to ask you the day after you officially left for college he told me that you had a real bad crush on me and never told me. I was wondering if it was true?”I stood there stunned. That damn ginger and his loose lips.Truth is I had a crush on Dan practically my whole life but I never told.I was the opposite of courageous back then.Super nerdy and shy.I didn’t look people in there eyes and constantly wore clothes that “hid” me. I was real moody teen.I was insincere because of my height and crooked teeth.I was the worst.When I went to college everything changed and I gained a new confidence and outlook on life.If this was high school I would’ve been scared to tell but I was a big now and I didn’t give a fuck.

“Yeah I did.I never told you ya’ know.Sorry ‘bout that”

“You could’ve told me.I wish you would’ve”he says as he kids the dust with his cowboy boot.”I was out drinking with him and told him that I had a crush on you.I was halfway through a breakdown when he told me”

“Excuse me, you should’ve told me”

“That’s what I just said”He said with his sexy cowboy grin.It made me me chuckle .

“Well, its all in the past now ,right?” I say jokingly. His smile drops

“Really, why?”he says with a curious stare.

I stare at him.Did I just offended him?

“Oh I mean well so much time has passed you know “. I say waving my hands trying to redirect

“Well my feelings haven’t changed”He says with a straight face.Is he being serious? Just before I could respond my phone rings.

“Yes, okay , I’m on the way now.”I hang up “Sorry about this Dan I have to go.Lets continue this conversation later.”

“Of course it was great catching up with you”I hug him and before I leave he says”Wait give me your address, I could swing by and maybe see where your staying”

“Oh actually I stay at my mothers old house”I say digging into my purse for a pen

“Great I still remember where that is actually “Whew I stop digging. He saved me at least another 10 minutes.My purse was always Jane Birkin style.

“Okay bye see ya Later” I say rushing out.I make it to my car and my heart is beating so fast.What does he mean he liked me ?He should’ve told i say gripping the steering wheel.I start the car.I feel stupid. If that was true I could just told him.Oh well, everything happens for a reason and I’m not one to dwell on the past.I drive home still thinking about Dan the Cowboy th whole way. His tall, dark, and handsome appearance caught my eye.He had perfect big lips I could imagine them all over me.Whew I shake my head trying to change my thoughts.No everyday your childhood crush tell you he was in love with you when you were younger.All I can think about is running it back with Mr. USA COWBOY DAN.I can only imagine the things I do to him if I had the chance.All of a sudden I think of Johnny .Even though I am mad at him for telling my fucking business I am even madder he didn’t tell me that Dan felt the same.

“Sneaky Ass Ginger”I say out loud.I pull in to my house and go inside.My publishing manager called me earlier and asked me to get started on a deadline early for the holidays.I currently writing a romance novel about two werewolves and their search for each other in a world that hates supernatural.Sounds childish but I love my work.I wouldn’t ask to do anything else.

One, two, Three hours pass and I finish 10 chapters and decide to finish later.Im exhausting.I grab a bottle of alcohol and pour me a shot.I look over at the clock its 12:17. The rain out side is pouring down harder and harder.I take my glass and bottle up stairs.I really wanna run it back with Mr.Dan just like he could read my mind.I hear a Knock.

“No way.”I say out loud.I open the door slowly and sure enough its Mr.Dan standing there.I open my mouth to ask him what his is doing here.

Out of breathe he says “Let’s skip the pleasantries, shall we?You and I both know we’re not here for small talk.”I move to the side and let the wet cowboy in.

I look up and fold my hands together and say”Thank you, Lord “ and close the door.