It feels as this memory will never leave

your cold lifeless body in the dirt

everytime I think about you thats all I can envision

cold, pale, so skinny that I can see every bone in your body through decaying skin

I can’t earase it

ur glued in my mind constantly replaying

I remember a few months before you left I visited you in the hospital

I saw the pain in your eyes when you looked at me

I should’ve known that I was losing you

a day later you couldn’t even move or speak

all i wanted to do was speak to you but it was too late

just laying under the cool hospital lights with a bunch of little beeps from the machines surrounding you

Im so selfish when you tried to call I ignored ur calls

your last words replay in my head every moment, every day

“I want to see my children, my daughter”

I want to see you too