Some nights I walk the streets and find myself on top of a roof to get the best view of the ocean under the moon.

Me and my bestfriends would join together at times to watch the sunset or rise. Both of them are good for me.

Sometimes she’d catch me walking alone at night in which she’d be driving alongside me. “Get in let’s go get some ramyun!” She’d say.

These days, I haven’t had much of an appetite for that..

Lately I’ve been having weird sensations craving meat and blood. Imagining how fresh it’d be in my head though I’ve never tried it.

I don’t want to..

I love her smile, I love their smiles. I want them to smile forever but.. if I can’t save their families.. their futures.. how can their smiles be preserved?..

This night I walk in deep thought however weakly. Letting my feet drag me down the hills of the roads’ sidewalks and into the night towards the sky and moon I’d never reach.

After all is done, the moon will still be there.. atleast I believe it will.

To my surprise, she didn’t show up to drive alongside me. She’s usually on her way from work but it seems she’s home tonight pondering on visiting her sister in Japan..

If I can’t save her and the world, I want to atleast give her the space to live with everything she has because there might not be a tomorrow..

Reaching the sand to the calm beach I continue for a few steps. Then I pause. With weak knees I almost hit the floor and keep up til I make it to the water.

While I want to just sleep, I have the urgency to act, I just don’t know how..

I feel stuck.

My eyes close themselves as the wind gushes sand lightly over me. In the sand of the beach I lay under the sky’s eye..

“Help me get up..”