I am from a shattered foundation, leaving wounds on the soles of my feet

I carry the ashes of the girl I drowned with compulsions leading me to pull out all my teeth

I used to be full of ambition, my passions resided deep down, flowing through my veins, acting as a compass that navigated me out of the murky sea

But now I am hopeless, full of defeat, guilty of the curtains I nailed over my window so no one would be able to peak

I am becoming conscious, revealing all the chaos that is sewn into me, not wanting to unravel the thread cause I’m terrified to leave

I am contorting my body, addressing issues that I believed weren’t solidifying me in mud full of dead seeds, so one day I can create a life that I won’t want to delete, a future that will fulfill all my dreams