She never really could have changed the outcome of things. That much pressure was bound to explode at some point. I tried so hard to incapacitate my negative feelings to keep everyone happy. We became victims of that too common “friends-to-strangers” pipeline in no time. No matter how hard I tried to demonstrate my feelings to her, it was never enough. The one-sided screaming matches were somehow never a wake-up call either. Did We need to keep it going for so long? Each time a path to solidify our future arose, we “never matched timings”. Maybe you could blame my idecision. I would be inclined to say, “it was my fault”.