The delusion of grief hangs in the air like cigarette smoke

Lingering still from the night I murdered you

People always run from what is true

That’s why I love you so

I took you home and talked with you

Every word like an atheists prayer,

Every breath a breeze in a night sky

Every silence a deafening echo.

I danced with you to feel

The way your body moved under my hands

Every step making a map on my floor

Everywhere you touched me was so soft it was painful

I kissed you to see how your lips felt with my hands on your delicate neck.

You tasted like smoke and late nights

Like champagne and wine

I slit your throat to see what color your blood would be

It was dark red like a scarlet rose

And your eyes when frightened were like diamonds in the dark sea

I held your body in my arms to feel it lose its warmth.

I watched your eyes to see the life leave them.

I kissed you to taste the blood rising from your throat

It tasted like how I dreamt it would.

Like grief, like a prayer, silence, pain, and wine.

As you faded away I told you softly how much I love you

Something so beautiful shouldn’t exist in this broken world