checking my weight still underweight but i have to be less

frowning at the scale glaring at the mirror but no matter, i’m still a mess

why do i wish for a flatter stomach when all i do is overeat

how come i beg to just finally look pretty when those are standards i’ll never meet

under 100 just checked today but my ‘friends’ all claim they are less

their hourglass shape compared to my awkward figure but now i know for sure i’m a mess

i wish i looked better without all this hardship because i know my ‘friends’ barely try

i cry in my bedroom my head in my knees because theyre perfect and so i ask

why can’t i?

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