checking my weight

still underweight

but i have to be less

frowning at the scale

glaring at the mirror

but no matter, i’m still a mess

why do i wish for a flatter stomach

when all i do is overeat

how come i beg to just finally look pretty

when those are standards i’ll never meet

under 100

just checked today

but my ‘friends’ all claim they are less

their hourglass shape

compared to my awkward figure

but now i know for sure i’m a mess

i wish i looked better without all this hardship

because i know my ‘friends’ barely try

i cry in my bedroom my head in my knees

because theyre perfect and so i ask

why can’t i?

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