I awake to another day,

No noise just my dreadful silence

Another sun climbs the sky,

Blue above, heavy with unshed storms.

Another night spent restless,

Tracing memories I can’t quite mourn.

In silence, I sit with the weight—

Of chapters closed, but never erased.

Some I wish had lingered longer,

Real or imagined, too tangled to face.

I shove the wanting down,

That pull to feel your body near.

To lose myself in your warmth,

Though I know it ends in fear.

Thoughts drift, uninvited,

Filling every corner of my day.

How does it always come to this?

Wanting, waiting, walking away.

To some, we were forbidden—

A secret never meant to bloom.

But my heart stopped asking questions

The moment it made space for you.

I wasn’t thinking of right or wrong,

Only of how your hands felt—

In my hair, on my face,

Every touch making my walls melt.

I ache for the way you kissed me,

Soft, yet saying everything.

In your silence, I felt your care—

A truth louder than anything.

Now, I sit here screaming,

But no sound ever leaves me.

Only my dreadful silence…

And the memories of what you used to be.