I sometimes feel like it’s my fault that I am sick. I stress a lot, I have been anxious, living in fight and flight mode for most of my existence.

Is this what made me sick? My lack of boundaries and self-love, Worry and fear. The overthinking spirals I keep finding myself into.

Sometimes I manage to get up and fight. Maybe I fight too hard at times What is the right amount of effort required for healing? How could I even really know?

They tell me, doctors and healers, That I am too hard on myself. I need to do less, take it easier.

I have been sick for years. I have been feeling upside down for so long. How much longer can I endure? Before I accept that this might just be what I need?