My life without you

Began while you were still next to me

In my arms

While you still held my heart

And I grieved my life with you

Before you had gone

When the soft light faded

I loved harder

Trying to grasp you

Hold you close once more

You pushed harder

Away from me

You repeated the words I longed to hear

“I love you”

Lies

Love does not raise its hands

It’s voice

It’s walls

Love is not cold

Or maybe yours is

Oh how I crave it

I told you I can put on another jacket

So long as you held me

in your blizzard of indifference

I lowered my walls as you

You built yours higher with my discarded bricks

You set traps around your heart and I

Bleeding in the snow you cast

Crawled desperately onwards, inwards, towards the beating

Was that your heart? Or did I have it coming

Oh how I longed for the warmth of your love

Yet buried myself in the snow around you

Until

You froze a part of my heart

And I knew

My life without you-

Is.