Little blurb from my draft two because I like it a lot better than the first draft one I posted 10000 years ago that none of you actually knew was part of my book but liek shhhhhh

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I used to think I had no regrets. I comforted myself with the foolish belief that everything would work out if given time and hope. Only now do I know better. I have not only gained this knowledge, but I also learn it as I watch the world's cruelty wrap its cold fingers around the family we worked to build. 

I make bad decisions, hundreds of mistakes, and it has hardened me. It has turned me into a person I never wanted to be. However, that didn't change the fact that the transformation had already taken place, and some things were irreversible. 

Though it was true that some bad decisions might help you find your happily ever after, that was rarely the case. The thing that every person was pining after. Whilst some deny it, we all look for it, work for it. We all dream of the time our life will be wrapped in a ribbon, but for most, that day never comes.

But all heroes are born from pain, the same way villains are. Neither are born that way; it's a learned behavior. Whether they yearn to be like someone or wish to be as different as possible, to stray from their ways. 

As for me, I was forced to find patterns that didn’t exist. I learned to rethink everything, second-guess every word, every number, until it made sense. 

I didn’t always think things through as if my life depended on just one question, no matter how pointless. I used to be innocent. Naive in the way I assumed the best of everyone. 

I was worried about failing tests. I never went to sleep, wondering if I would wake up. I never wondered which of my friends I would have to watch die. 

I hadn’t realized that the world would kill if you let it. 

That’s where I’ll start. 

I'll go back to the time I was happy, innocent, and carefree. I might not have thought so at the time, but it's hard to realize how good you have it, while you still do. When life claws it from you, as it usually does, you feel the emptiness once filled. 

Yes, that’s where I will begin, only two days before: