I spent too long

Crying

When you left me…

But now the tears have

Dried up.

_I remember how painful it was_

_At first…_

The crying and screaming…

The sobbing and desperate prayers

For you to come back

That were answered with “no.”

_Now I look back_

_At those times…_

_And I laugh._

_I remember how over time_

_I adjusted_

_To your absence…_

I wiped away

My tears

And cleaned up

The trails they left

On my cheeks.

I stepped forward,

Not backward,

Into the dawn,

Not the night.

_But then…_

_You returned…_

My heart stopped

For a moment,

And I almost fell back

Into old patterns,

Into old _love_…

_But that wasn’t_

_Love…_

__

You’ve come back,

But I

No longer need you…

The time I spent with you

Was time wasted.

_At least I _

_Learned a lesson._

_What lesson?_

People that treat me

Like shit,

They don’t deserve

My time or energy…

I don’t _need_ them.

I don’t _need_ you either…

So goodbye,

Adios,

This is the end,

So I’ll make a toast…

_You were a rotten apple,_

_You almost tainted me too,_

_But when you left?_

_That’s when I got through _

_The pain._

I have

No _need_ for you

Anymore.