She laughed at the mess she made. It was a shiny sunny morning, with nothing to lose and no where to go but up. The surrender was official and real, and now it’s time to just start walking forward. The journey began from a place of isolation, filled with many quiet nights and many silent moments. The silence brought an energy of calm and internal peace. There were many days of self-reflection and shame transforming into courage and forgiveness. It was an existence of grace and being beautifully broken. New friends and peers, had betrayed her. Old friends faded away with questions. How did she end up in this place, bondage and evil had attempted to consume and destroy her. Envy, stalking, obsession and jealousy had chased her out of the only place she knew as home. She was raised and lived her entire life as a caring faithful woman with deep values and belief in the goods and love of her God. She never knew traumatic experiences as reality or real life. She overcame the surrender and entered what she thought was a tiny universe of recovery and healing. In this space, she encountered vipers, broods and all types of brokers of evil who would smile in her face and in the same moment project insult to her injury. The counterfeit members of this group, hurt her more than any help she could receive. She found herself healing internally and spiraling externally. Could external circumstances and influence take her to new lows she never imagined. Unfortunately she fell victim to the insane prey with a plethora of sicknesses masked as a recovered people and fellowship. She is now free from the fear and pain resulting from her having been a devout member of this insane international “people who have recovered.” She resisted the idea of having no permanent power in areas that she has now surrender. She asked to many questions upon learning the hard way believe what you see, not what you hear. Embracing the freedom from the chaos bad people and bad choices she made, while healing away from those who capitalize on the suffering of others. A new leaf has turned. She made it through the fire! Rising like a phonemix despite the assassination attempt of her reputation, character and being. She proved to herself leveraging your core beliefs can propel you through walking through any valley of the shadow of death. She has accepted the many lessons she learned from unforeseen and foreign challenges. As her life goals and personal affairs continue to evolve on the journey of restoration to stability. She knows today, all is well in her life now. And so it is. Nothing was going according to plan, for such a time as this, buy it is absolutely perfect.