is there such thing as too much peace ?

i couldn’t imagine

too much solace

too much calm

i truly couldn’t fathom

an opportunity to be relieved of all that plagues me

no longer buried by burdens

if i sit an imagine what that means to me what could possibly bring me too much peace?

could i be so relaxed and unbothered that it becomes some sort of uncomfortable sensation.

one where i now crave anything but the constant regulation of my nervous system.

the closest i’ve had to too much peace was when the arguing and incessant tension was gone and a normal day was the highest reward

a day where the house didn’t shake or my face and pillow weren’t constantly stained with tears

now i sometimes sit in silence a peaceful bliss i had long desired

hours to just sit with no barked orders or nasty remarks

and even in this peace i find discomfort, i now long for a different kind of peace

something similar but evolved

where i am encapsulated by loving and supporting friends and family

thriving in my relationship and in my self

a peace where i don’t worry how everyone is doing and instead allow myself to worry and concern myself with me

i couldn’t imagine too much of it i couldn’t imagine ever getting tired or uncomfortable or thinking it’s too much

i think if there was that much peace i’d never get enough