“Adam I love you!” Those were the last words I said to my best friend today. I couldn’t bare being just friends with him anymore, so I told him how I felt. “Reese, you know I can’t be with you, I don’t like you in that way. I thought you knew?” Was his response. I spent years hyping myself up to utter those three simple words and in a moment my whole world came crashing down around me.

I think I already knew he couldn’t like me back, that would be too convenient. But that still doesn’t prepare you for the devastation you feel when the person you’ve loved for so long, will never feel the same way. It’s like having your heart ripped out and tossed in the trash.

“You’ll find someone who can feel the same way about you” he said after I didn’t respond. Were these words supposed to help me? Supposed to make me feel better? I guess in a way they did? Because maybe he’s right? Maybe I will find someone as charming, and kind, and loving as my best friend is. And hopefully saying I love you, won’t be the last thing I say to my best friend again.