I'm not sure how I feel.

To fall in love or to be alone.

Most times, I want it, and other times I don’t.

Genuine love is beautiful.

When it’s mutual.

The Fun dates, hanging out.

The Beach dates, holding hands.

The Painting dates, painting arts.

How about the movies ?

And lovie dovie stories.

Perhaps I’m dreaming.

Perhaps being alone is not so bad

Reading books and playing games with the boys.

Staying Indoors escaping outside noise.

But I’m not sure i’d want that.

I’d love to see Christmas movies with her.

Watch her smile and laugh at my jokes.

Read her psalms.

Watch her sleep in my arms.

But I’m not just sure how I feel.

To Love or Not to.