I cling onto the idea of someone harder than I cling to the actual person.

Please don't leave me.

I've put you on too high of a pedestal, I don't want to watch you fall.

Obsess, Overthink, Cry, Repeat.

I am not my own person.

I'm you. I'm my friends. I'm everyone around me.

If you leave, I'm stuck with reminders of you in how I act.

I'll change. I'll be what you want me to be.

I can be whoever you see me as.

Just please don't leave.

I'll put on the makeup. I'll lose the weight. I'll wear the pretty dresses.

Just stay.

Don't.. leave.

Please.

I can't bear your absence.

Not when your hoodie sits in my bed every night.

Not when you linger in my dreams, telling me things I could only wish to hear.

Why am I like this?

Why can't I change?