I wish they would notice me

My eyes my presence my glasses

Anything

Anything to make them notice me

But he has a girlfriend

Why would he want me if he has a girlfriend.

I question myself daily

why I feel this way

This desire for someone that doesn’t notice

Why?

I always wished his girlfriend was me

Why can’t he be with me?

Is it for his masculinity or to hide from the world

why won’t he love me like he loves

his girlfriend

Why?

I envy the way they fit together

like puzzle pieces.

Why?

Why does this jealousy infect me

like a plague

It should be me wrapped around his arms

not her

the way she looks at him infuriates me like fuel to a flame.

Why?

Why not me but

Them..